When I first started dating Isaac, he wouldn't watch American Idol with me. The first shows of the season were my favorite for a reason. I would sit by myself and laugh my head off watching other people humiliate themselves on national television. The reason why people love American Idol is because there are some crazy people out there and Simon knows how to put them in their place. Isaac would ask how can you watch such a cruel show? Its basically making fun of people and making money off of them. However, I had not even an ounce of sorrow for the contestants. It was the contestants choice to come the audition and be on national television hoping for a chance to go to Hollywood . Therefore, I could laugh at them for all I know is that they are way too different and I didn't care what anyone else thought.
This year as I watched the first couple auditions, I found myself feeling a little different. I was not laughing as much. I do admit I enjoyed watching it, but for the first time I felt sorry for the weird people who were criticized for their horrible and tortuous singing. No doubt I still laughed at crazy weirdos who couldn't sing. But along with the chuckle, I genuninely felt bad for the werid looking people that American Idol was mocking and making money off of. Then all of sudden, I realized someone had changed.
I realized that even through the past year of questioning my doctrines and challenges in my spiritual walk, God is softening my heart. I have been giving myself a hard time of being too judgemental and mean to those who don't deserve it. I really thought my heart was hardening with the evil of apathy. Its okay with me when my religion gets unclear, but I was scared I was immune to empathy. It is important and my biggest challenge in my spirituality, how I treat other people. I believe how you treat people is determined by what really lies in your heart and mind.
I thank God that even though my husband might have conservative thoughts in politics and liberal ideas in religion, he inspires me to be a kind person. His thoughtful + actions and honest -actions have planted seeds in my heart and mind. Though the enlightment through American Idol is a small and silly evaluation of my change, I am grateful that I have moments in my life where I can recognize change in me and change in my life.
via d'amor
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2 comments:
having sat through a few american idols now, I can honestly say...Wow! I don't think any less of you for watching it but no one can make fun of me for watching monday night RAW.
At least with RAW, I know that it's an act and its authentic entertainment. With Idol, ppl are just playing on one's hopes and dreams.
But I love my wife, so I watch with her on occasion, especially later in the season when the feedback from the judges is more constructive.
raw is just dirty man. its animalistic.
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